The Things That Make Me Happy...

(In No Particular Order)
* Bike Rides In The Mornings
* Autumn Sunshine
* Taking Photos
* Good Music
* My Husband
* Running The Combine
* The Smell Of Laundry
* A Clean House
* Naps In The Afternoon
* Picnics With My Neices
* Walking Down A Path Covered In Orange and Yellow Leaves
etc...

Just Choose!!!

Funny how I blogged a few months ago saying how i was going to start blogging again and that was my last post...I guess it must not have i meant that much to me cause i totally forgot about it. But I'm still in the same boat i was in when i wrote my last blog. Except how I'm living in the town i never thought i would live in again, at the same job i hate and now a married to the man i didn't expect to marry. The marrying part is great though. I love him so much. But I can already see that the sayings about the first three years of marriage being the hardest are totally going to be evident in my life. That's what i get for marrying a guy who farms in the summer while i live in town.
What are the things that make me who i am? I don't even know where to start searching for the answers. In the movies people always take a trip to find themselves. I am not in the position to do that. Other people read self help books. I used to read them but it only seemed to make it worse. So where do i find myself. The bible is a good place to start. I get discouraged fast with that though. So often i don't feel like I'm learning about my character but just the things that I'm doing wrong. I want to wake up and feel good about myself. I want to wake up and have something to live for that day. Happiness is a choice. and i want to choose to be happy. I guess there isn't more that i can do right now except to just do it. Just choose. I will be happy. I will wake up tomorrow refreshed and ready to face the day!!

Bring On The Change

Well I haven't wrote a blog in so long, but in the midst of my desire for change I thought starting to blog again could be the beginning of fullfilling that desire.

Im in a life now that I never could have imagined. I live back in the town I never wanted to be in. Im engaged to a man I never thought I would end up with, and still at a job I didnt think would last more than a few months.

It's hard doing the same things everyday. I look at myself in the mirror and the only thing that seems to be changing are my wrinkles. The older I get the more defeated I feel. Age is supposed to be beauty but I feel that age is angry wrinkly and uninteresting.

A Song That Has Been Placed On My Heart

There's a cry in my heart
For your glory to fall
For your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

Could you take me beyond
Could you carrry me through
If I opened my heart
Could I go there with you
For I've been here before
Yet I know there's still more
O Lord, I need to know you

For what do I have
If I don't have you Jesus
What in this life
Could mean anymore
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter of my head

OFF TO CAMP!!

So Im heading to camp tomorrow morning...I have mixed emotions about this coming week.....I am excited and scared all at the same time...Im hoping that the excitment will out way the fear once I get there and settle in....I am going to be spending a week in the mountains with a bunch of teenagers on horses....We are going to be hicking and swimming by water falls....Maybe even slide down a mountain in the snow....I will be staying in one of the tents with a bunch of girls....I hope to draw closer to the LORD as I encourage these teens to draw closer to HIM....

FGBC HERE I COME!!!

So I got my Alberta Student Loan today....HOORAY!!!.....It's not going to completely cover all my expenses...But the LORD with provide for the future just has He has provided for the present....
PRAISE GOD!!!

DO YOU EVER???

Do you ever...Stop and think about your life?...Stop and take in the things around you?...Situations?..Feelings?...People?...Music?...Do you ever... wish that you could go back??...To a certain time?...A certain place?...Just to feel the way you did at that moment?...Do you ever... wish that you could be someone else?...Or wish that you could be the person you want to be?...Do you ever... want to do something crazy?...Like jump off a bridge?...Or dance INFRONT of people instead of all alone in your room?.....Do you ever...wish you could say exactly what you want to say and not get made fun of for it?...Do you ever...want to be really good at something?...Like painting?...Or photography?...Or writing?...Or sports?...Or life?...DO YOU EVER??....Cause DO I EVER!!!